Spesialisasi

If you are in medschool, almost everyone will ask you this: "Ooh, ambil spesialis apa?"

I have to admit that actually i have not give that much thought. See, i am still an undergraduate, and undergraduate medstudents study everything. By everything, i mean EVERYthing. It's just so much to cover, all of them is interesting in their own way. Besides, i am the type of person who is easily fascinated. So when i learn about dermatology, i thought "Dermatology is fun, i might make a cute dermatologist!" (seriously? :D). And then when i progressed to internal medicine (gastroenterology, cardiology, etc etc) i thought "Whoa the internists are all genius, i might as well be one of 'em!". Still, when i reached neurology, i thought "Neurology is so wonderful, it covers all the other medscience! I need to learn more about it!"

See, i cant make up my mind about what should i be in the future. All of them medscience are overwhelmingly interesting. But after a long thought, i finally narrowed it down to these (in random order):

1. Psychiatry.
Psychiatrists deal with psychotic people. The term 'psychotic' here doesn't mean the cold-blooded serial killer who lurks in the dark brandishing knife to some passers-by. Psychotic, literally, means someone with mental disorder. It includes perceptual disorders (like seeing things that aren't actually there), mood and affective disorders (bipolar, depression, manic), and thought disorders (like speaking something absurd or walking down the street with no clothes on > a chronic case of schizophrenia). Actually i was afraid of mental people at first. They freaked me out! I had some bad experiences with schizophrenics (long story). But after i learned psychiatry last semester, i realized that there is no health without mental health. So i decided that psychiatry is important. Besides, most psychiatrists i know are kind, emphatic, patient, and they always seem to talk nicely. I want to talk nice :3

2. Dermatology
Dermatology is seriously fun. Although the case i've learned usually looked gross and horrible (like burns or scales or even simple acne that grows very large), i found them interesting and fun to learn. And dare i say dermatology cases are tend to be simpler than other medical condition? But of course, as skin is the outer part of our body that's exposed to environment, we have to keep it nice, intact, and healthy. I also noticed that the dermatologists are gorgeous, with wonderful skin. Hehe, maybe if i be a dermatologist i could look nicer too (what kind of motive is this haha). But unfortunately, dermatology is often associated with venerology (SpKK > Spesialis kulit dan kelamin). I don't think i'm into the latter :/

3. Obstetry-Gynecology
I don't know why most of ob-gyn doctors are male, while the patients are all female. Most of my female relations advised me to take ob-gyn in the future, because they are not so happy with some male overlooking their intimate organs. Besides, females should know better about other females, right? I gotta admit this is true. My grandma, in particular, strongly encourage me to take ob-gyn. She said that there's so few female ob-gyn nowadays, in fact, there's only one in Sidoarjo where she lives. And the female ob-gyn doctor is so busy because many women want her to assist their labor and examine their you-know-what. My Grandma thought it must be nice if there are more female ob-gyn doctors, so we woman don't have to worry much. I actually like what i've learned in ob-gyn, they're interesting. But i heard that the pressure of being an ob-gyn resident is hard, seniors making you do things and whatnot. Guess if i want to be ob-gyn doctor, i need to be tough >.<

"the baby says hello"

4. Surgery
I never give it much thought, since they say surgeon is the most tiring being a doctor can be. Imagine you have to stand and concentrate on those tiny blood vessels, be careful not to cut 'em, removing cancerous lesions, etc for HOURS. Surgeons have to be good at hands, have a fine motor control, have a sharp vision, and have strong legs that can support their weight. Besides, surgery residency takes longer that most other specializations, 10 semesters, if i recall correctly. That means more time, and more money. But lately, since i've been fond of crocheting, a friend said to me i would make a good surgeon. Come to think of it, i actually like delicate handwork, and once i'm absorbed in it, i find it so hard to stop :D And i remember once when i had this Basic Surgical Skill KKD session, the tutor complimented the knots i made. He also said i would make a nice surgeon. Hey, why not? :)

hello, can we, like, cut you open now? 

Those are some fields that i'm interested in, FOR NOW. There are others i would like to write, like cardiology, neurology, and otorhinolaryngology (THT). But i have matters to do now. This interest probably can still change. My seniors said i will know what i like most after i'm actually involved in real cases in clinic rotation. Clinic rotation is next semester, so i think i have to prepare for the best that might come :) Any suggestion what should i take?